[Nyx]

Also, note to ALL women on here, by the way: Don't think you'll react how you WANT to react, because it's VERY different when you're actually in the situation. There's ways to make yourself do things automatically, like a reflex, for self defense. You can also get keychains that double as weapons- I know a girl who had this pretty, pink, 6 inch long metal spike on her key ring.

I always like to imagine myself pulling something like what Anastasia did to the guy's balls, but when that stuff happened with the fake talent scout, my mind blanked and I didn't know what was going on and how to react, just that I didn't like what was going on. I kick myself mentally all the time when I think of that day and wish I could have grabbed that guy's balls and ripped them out. I was REALLY lucky that he was trying to earn my trust and had me meet him at a Starbucks, otherwise, who knows what could have happened. Ever since then, I flinch and get SUPER paranoid when an older guy touches my hands, because that's how he started- he grabbed my hands to initiate the physical contact.

Sometimes I wish I weren't so self conscious that I could leave the house without making myself all prettied up, because I know I get attention I don't need and I could get myself in a lot of trouble because I'm not a physically OR mentally strong person.