[caitemh]

Thank you all for your support.

I've been struggling with just about everything recently. Problems still with my ex.. My sister and I are in a month long process of moving homes, and the new man had left for a month for school.

I'm just at such a strange part of my life right now, but I feel like I have to reconnect with my body.

When I started my program, I used it as an outlet for my over active mind. When I was stressed about my relationship, my problems, my insecurities, I would focus on my program. What I could change, what's going right. I felt like I became closer with my body, my cycle, myself. I looked forward to the evenings when I could spend hours just absently massaging, or Noogleing with the TV.

I don't necessarily need that distraction now. I'm happy, I'm getting healthy, and I have someone who's now able to tend to my needs.. The ones I want having fulfilled in the other relationship.

But I still feel like I need to connect with my body. I had to return some of my exs things yesterday, and was left in such an anxious and upset state, I worked out for three hours to keep myself busy.

I spent an hour with my Noogleberry last night and my swelling was wonderful. I missed it. I've also started back on my herbs. I was going to give them up when I learned this new man's feelings on it. He doesn't feel like I need to change myself at all, and he just worries that I'm safe. It's wonderful to have someone say those things to you. But I feel like I'm cheating myself if I don't finish my one year I promised myself.

So I'm taking the month to completely focus on myself again. It should be easy, considering my guy will be out of town for the month.

Let's see what his opinion is when he returns!

Haha. I'm not gone yet ladies, I'll be frequenting here until at least August!