[Anastasia916]

I think every woman has that fear of the unknown in their first pregnancy, my fear wasn't really in giving birth and the pain, it was if things went wrong and I needed a c-section, I'm terrified of surgery because I had a dream before that I was having surgery done, for what not sure, and I had anesthesia awakeness, I believe that's what it's called when you are under anesthesia and they think you are asleep and not feeling everything, but in reality your brain is still awake and you feel EVERYTHING you just can't respond. In the movie called "Awake" a guy has open heart surgery and has it. But yea, I have a high tolerance to pain, so I might be a lil different then others on my opinion with this, but I had back labor, where my contractions were in my back, they say it's the worst type of labor because it's the most painful. And really it wasn't the worst pain I went through in my life, sure it's no picnic, but I was actually expecting worse. It's kind of like when you are a virgin and you imagine your first time to be soo magical and special lol then it happens and you're like, is that it? LOL, same thing here, I had it in my mind that labor was the worst thing in the world, but I've experienced worse. I did have an epidural but it wasn't until I was dilated to 8 cm, barely making the cut for me to get one because the anesthesiologist was busy that night with a life or death situation, so I almost didn't get one. But mine actually wore off, I felt the last 20 min of labor, it was just feeling a little bit of it at first, then from pushing the shoulders down I had complete feeling back. I even felt some of him sowing me back up. Nowadays when you get an epidural you have a tube going into your spine hooked to a machine that when you need more medicine you push a button and it gives you more, when I started to get feeling back, I told my mom to press it, the doctor told her NOT TO!!! It's like wtf? That's what it's there for dipshit, how bout you push a baby out your tiny penis hole and let me deny you medicine. UGH that's why I'm never having a male doctor again. So my mom listened to the doctor, I couldn't reach the button and push at the same time, and at the time I was more worried about my son since they couldn't find his heartbeat and at the same time having the dipshit doctor tell me not to push. I was actually one of those calm pregnant and in labor type of women, I didn't yell or cuss at anyone, all the nurses loved me cause I was so easy going, hell I was making jokes about everything, but I sure enough cussed and yelled that doctor in the ground. At one point I told him that if I could move I would knock his ass out with my fists lol. I kept telling him just to come a lil closer, if he had I damn sure would have punched him, in the face. But yea, everyone makes birth out to be a horror story, but in my opinion it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, you will be surprised what you can handle when it comes down to it, your maternal instincts kick in way before the baby is born.