[blessedbreasts]

BB I know how you feel.
For all the years of looking after my mother in the same position. A lot of time spent at home when I wanted to be elsewhere. A lot of QUIET time to run all these scenarios in your head of "this that and the other".
It drives/drove me bonkers too. My mind never stops ticking over.
First off theres going to be a wonderful life waiting for you at the end of all this, you will be repaid for all the love you are putting into your family. A husband and children and all that brings.

Now this might help with the right now. Because you and I are soo alike :p I found and use a homeopathic product, or a couple actually called "white chestnut" and "rescue remedy" - you probably know of them already. White Chestnut quiets the mind & slows down the constant brain chatter and Rescue Remedy is just amazing. Calms you down. All very mild and wont interfere with anything you take.
Next I try to keep busy. When i'm having those days I just try to keep busy, go for walks, re arrange stuff. You get the drift and when I start to think negative I divert my thoughts to other things or say in my head "shut up ella lol "

You really learn a lot about yourself when you're a caregiver, don't you? It's amazing. Too much time to think, ugh. Thank you, I hope you're right! I can't wait to start a family of my own.

I've never heard of those products! I'm looking into them right now. Thank you. I've actually been wanting to try something natural to help me with my moods and feelings. (I've even wanted to try not-so-natural things, like popping some of my mom's pills, but I've resisted)

"shut up ella lol" Ha ha, I'm going to try this! I think I'll add "You're fine" at the end as well. And I think I'll go on a cleaning spree whenever the thoughts try to take over.

Thank you so so so much. This helps a lot! *hugs*

P.S.: My mum is doing much better, and she's glad I stayed with her. :-)