Understandable! Girl, and everyone else, I wish us all just the best! The strange inner (inner/outer) world is definitely something I can relate to having been totally confounded and disturbed by at times! Divine & Benevolent Love, Peace, Safety, Joy, and Comfort be on us All! Most High Benevolence Bless you all, very much. Love and Light.
PS: Tibetan, have you tried EFT or Ho'oponopono? I meditate pray protection before sleeping and at other time. I also practice grounding. Grounding is such a powerful method, especially grounding and aligning through the root chakra! Part of recovering from what you Are recovering from (thinking good thoughts for ya
is strengthening/ loving your non-physical self and remembering that you are not alone, not when you are happy and safe, not when you are unhappy or in danger. I think maybe we all have lessons or whatever in life. I had a certain issue, in my twenties. I was afraid to go to bed! I woke up like I had fought for my life all night long! The second night, in desperation, kind of out of character, I yelled out in desperation, "In the name of Jesus" and boom, suddenly I was stronger and saved from I don't know what with all the power like the prayer warrior I am! Before the third night could happen, I told my (much more traditional Christian) friends about what was happening because I actually was afraid of sleeping. It was a time in my life when my spiritual energy was so high, I could prophesy. Well, long story short, it worked. I am a mystique, so my Spiritual practice and seeking is fairly wide ranging. Youtube is kinda like my biggest "spiritual" resource; everything from receiving free distant healings, to learning about how to heal/help myself and others. Great stuff, as you may know. It's true that sometimes the fight too, is the search. This for example (CAUTION! definitely this video is very hard on the ears! Avoid headphones on first listen!!!), https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rfQVgVayXcc , is an interesting take, amongst many, about dealing with certain things. I wish you much luck, dear child of the universe!
PPS: Longest PS ever! LOL! Luv ya!
PS: Tibetan, have you tried EFT or Ho'oponopono? I meditate pray protection before sleeping and at other time. I also practice grounding. Grounding is such a powerful method, especially grounding and aligning through the root chakra! Part of recovering from what you Are recovering from (thinking good thoughts for ya
is strengthening/ loving your non-physical self and remembering that you are not alone, not when you are happy and safe, not when you are unhappy or in danger. I think maybe we all have lessons or whatever in life. I had a certain issue, in my twenties. I was afraid to go to bed! I woke up like I had fought for my life all night long! The second night, in desperation, kind of out of character, I yelled out in desperation, "In the name of Jesus" and boom, suddenly I was stronger and saved from I don't know what with all the power like the prayer warrior I am! Before the third night could happen, I told my (much more traditional Christian) friends about what was happening because I actually was afraid of sleeping. It was a time in my life when my spiritual energy was so high, I could prophesy. Well, long story short, it worked. I am a mystique, so my Spiritual practice and seeking is fairly wide ranging. Youtube is kinda like my biggest "spiritual" resource; everything from receiving free distant healings, to learning about how to heal/help myself and others. Great stuff, as you may know. It's true that sometimes the fight too, is the search. This for example (CAUTION! definitely this video is very hard on the ears! Avoid headphones on first listen!!!), https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rfQVgVayXcc , is an interesting take, amongst many, about dealing with certain things. I wish you much luck, dear child of the universe!PPS: Longest PS ever! LOL! Luv ya!