14-02-2014, 08:54
Thank you for all the support everbody! I had a moment of discouragement and felt very down about myself and my body.
I haven't been on here in a good while because more or less, I just gave up on myself. I'll admit it, my self esteem sucks (Hence the rant) but I am just not sure how to work on that obviously having flaws that I can't get over. Knowing that the only way I'll feel good about myself is if those things change.
I don't want to be underweight anymore.
I want at least to have my prepregnancy breasts back.
I don't want these ugly stretch marks anymore.
Positive notes since I've been away:
I learned that this IUD could be the reason I am unable to put weight back on and I have an appointment on Monday to see about switching to the pill. I have heard some women on the pill notice an increase in breast size also....so crossing my fingers this will help.
2nd, I have been doing a regimen for treating my stretch marks. I rub them with palmers tummy butter and then put Vick's over that. I read somewhere that Vick's helps tremendously. So far I have not missed a day of this routine and actually, it seems to be showing some results....especially in lightening them. The one above my belly button has even disappeared! Granted, it was a small one already pretty light in color but it's something at least. If any of you have had stretch mark removal success, please share!
As for the breast region, not noticing much of a difference...which again, is discouraging. I have lost the heat because it started making me rashy. I'm still every now and then applying the Vicks at night. The tummy butter I use for my stretch marks, I have also been using during massage because it has almond oil, collagen, elastin, lavender oil, and safflower seed oil in it!
Maybe I should takes some updated pics and compare?
Oh yeah, and about the bra situation.....still at a loss. I found one that fit a little better but I still have a good amount of space in the tops of the cups. I know the band size I'm wearing is wrong (32) but I don't want to order an expensive ass bra online and have it not fit or not like it. I can't even feel it or see the padding and what not! Irritating to say the least. I am wondering if maybe it's just my lack of fullness up top? In that case, maybe I should try out a balconett bra since it pushes up from under my bust? My self esteem takes a huge dip knowing everytime I step foot in a store to go bra shopping, they don't even sell my size because it's too small.
I haven't been on here in a good while because more or less, I just gave up on myself. I'll admit it, my self esteem sucks (Hence the rant) but I am just not sure how to work on that obviously having flaws that I can't get over. Knowing that the only way I'll feel good about myself is if those things change.
I don't want to be underweight anymore.
I want at least to have my prepregnancy breasts back.
I don't want these ugly stretch marks anymore.
Positive notes since I've been away:
I learned that this IUD could be the reason I am unable to put weight back on and I have an appointment on Monday to see about switching to the pill. I have heard some women on the pill notice an increase in breast size also....so crossing my fingers this will help.
2nd, I have been doing a regimen for treating my stretch marks. I rub them with palmers tummy butter and then put Vick's over that. I read somewhere that Vick's helps tremendously. So far I have not missed a day of this routine and actually, it seems to be showing some results....especially in lightening them. The one above my belly button has even disappeared! Granted, it was a small one already pretty light in color but it's something at least. If any of you have had stretch mark removal success, please share!
As for the breast region, not noticing much of a difference...which again, is discouraging. I have lost the heat because it started making me rashy. I'm still every now and then applying the Vicks at night. The tummy butter I use for my stretch marks, I have also been using during massage because it has almond oil, collagen, elastin, lavender oil, and safflower seed oil in it!
Maybe I should takes some updated pics and compare?
Oh yeah, and about the bra situation.....still at a loss. I found one that fit a little better but I still have a good amount of space in the tops of the cups. I know the band size I'm wearing is wrong (32) but I don't want to order an expensive ass bra online and have it not fit or not like it. I can't even feel it or see the padding and what not! Irritating to say the least. I am wondering if maybe it's just my lack of fullness up top? In that case, maybe I should try out a balconett bra since it pushes up from under my bust? My self esteem takes a huge dip knowing everytime I step foot in a store to go bra shopping, they don't even sell my size because it's too small.