23-03-2011, 05:39 PM
I have probably tried every form of NBE, aside from BO, at some time or another for over 5 years. Devices, herbs, massage, exercise, several message forums, even hypnosis and subliminal messages. And the most I have experienced is mood swings, face and chest acne, stomach problems, and issues with my lady business. So many times I got hopeful over some temporary swelling or what I thought was a change in shape but really wasn't. I am tired. I have spent too much time and money on this adventure and have been avoiding the true issue all along. I don't like myself and the way I look. I kept thinking if I had bigger boobs I would be happy. Well, that is hopeful but not likely. I found myself either obsessing about my boobs or my waist. And you know what the other day I was looking at myself in the mirror and thought they looked bigger and then turned to the side and realized I was bigger. I had gained 5 lbs. And I don't really care I guess, my boyfriend didn't even notice though even a little weight is noticeable on me. So today I am tossing out my pills and my NB and my lotions and working on loving myself just the way I am. I have some things I need to do to get back to healthy. I do not judge anyone ofcourse, but this declaration is the begining of my new adventure. I wish everyone the best of luck in their NBE and lives. But remember we were made perfect and unique, we just gotta accept that sometimes. Much love to everyone!