Well I had to write for a long time.
I haven't gave up on NBE, I just ordered my noogleberry, it'll be in the mail by the end of next week I guess.
Anyway, my thinking of the last months had to lead to this conclusion: stop the war on your body !
I definitely stopped to try to lose weight. And for the first time in about 10 years, I stayed at the same weight for almost 6 months. 143.3 lbs / 65kg, yeah that may sound a lot but at least I'm not constantly gaining or losing weight. I've always been bigger than the other girls, that's the way I am, why would I try to change it ? I'm eating healthy and I exercise more than the average girl, there's nothing wrong with it, I'm just build thicker.
I'm not loving my body yet, actually I'm trying to accept it the way it is, even if most of the time it just means trying to avoid the mirror and forget about it. Sadly, while I was on my way to self-acceptance, I got tattooed. I wanted to do something that changed my whole body to make it more bearable. I can't believe I did this. The straw that broke the camel. That what decided me to stop trying to change my body because it leads to crazy things and for what ? Match unrealistic standards of beauty.
I would love to stop NBE too but actually my breast were the only part of myself I ever liked, the only one that made me feel feminine. I don't care if I can't show off huge cleavage in public anymore but still, it's missing. People seem to find me more attractive since I lost weight and tell me I still have lots of boobs but it's not about them. My very special thing is gone, and it doesn't have anything to do with anyone else. If I could go back to the time when I weighted 20lbs more I'd do it even if people found me ugly, at least there would be one part of my body that I would not constantly try to ignore.
The point is, I know that most of you girls are very skinny (this of course doesn't apply to the biological males), and I'd just like to remind you how many women in the world would kill to be like you. I understand it must have been really hard feeling like you weren't gifted while others were but that's just wrong, you were gifted in another way. And how could that be wrong ? That's your body, that's how you were born and that's how you grew up, really, how could it be wrong ?
And that totally applies to the tuberous breast bullshit. Do you realize how many we are on this forum thinking we have a difformity ? If I remember well, only the severe cases can induce problems in lactation and it's quite rare, apart from that it's just another breast shape. Not everyone has perky breast with small nipples even if the medias lets you think so, and that's alright, there's nothing to fix because that's normal and beautiful.
NBE is a safe method that's not too violent or intrusive neither, contrary to a diet or to surgery, and I know how it can lead to positive feelings: I am not trying to convince anyone to stop, I just wanted to express my feelings because I think it's relevant to this forum. I hope that none of you will go too far just to change their body, and eventually get to a state where you don't want to 'fix' anything anymore.
And I didn't said a word about people but fuck them. Really, fuck anybody who'd suggest you to get implants, to gain or lose weight, to start exercise, to shave, etc. generally anyone making nasty comments about your body. That's always inappropriate.