[Happyme]

Hi Swanny!
Sorry to hear your so glum.
But like Synastry said you need to love your self and shoot for the future.
I'm sure a lot, or rather all of us, can relate to your situation.
So the answer is to get out of your comfort zone!
Visualize what you want the real you to look like and commence to work on it.
Put a little effort into your appearance, go for a walk.
Tomorrow put a little more effort into your appearance, and walk farther, and it'll get easier to extend your efforts as you do more.
And each day push your self a little farther, and NEVER take a day off. Thats a killer.
Hop on the scale every other day, and challenge yourself to lose xxx pounds a day.
Before you know it you'll be slim and trim and NBE will kick in as well.
Also you have to keep up your NBE program or change whats not working.

And then there is the mental side of things too.
If you keep telling your self you look and feel like Poo. then you will begin to believe it even if its not true.
So fake out your psychy, and tell your self your getting better every day, more beautiful, thinner, stronger, and more buxom. The you convince your mind it true the faster you'll be out of your slump and onto a happier you.

Huggs  ((((((DARK SWAN))))))
Bobbi

Hey Happy   

That's really true. What we think we look also depends on our mood and thoughts. I really did start to feel genuinely ugly because of my constant negative thought patterns. Also, because the crappier I felt, the less I did for my skin and health; and turned into a cycle.

I took your advice. I joined the gym, talked to a trainer and have been going regularly. I don't have that much to lose. Just a few days of positive thinking and healthy routine have bought a glow on my face.

Thank you so much for your reply.
Always glad to hear from you xx

Glad to hear it Swanny!
Every day for me is a great day.
If its not going the way I want it, I just stop and go in the direction I need to.
Its pretty easy to tell your self 'today will be a great day"
Then the rest will be given to you.
Bobbi