[Beth-x]

Thanks everyone for the understanding posts and tips. This forum makes me feel a bit less lonely in my issue but sadly it doesn't stop the self loathing until I reach my goal.

Today I saw a 12 year old with a more mature body than myself, I'm 22. I feel like that was the ultimate proof puberty failed me.

I understand how you feel, I've felt it myself recently. Have you had your hormones tested or been to a doctor? I would really recommend it if you haven't, because it could show something and then you'd be closer to finding a solution or the right treatment to help you. 
I ended up going to a private hormone clinic on Wednesday, which was really expensive for me but worth it as I was listened to and they really helped.  You may have PCOS, as that condition often leads to breasts stopping developing in puberty or the growth being stunted due to either a hormonal deficiency of estrogen/progesterone or testosterone/androgen dominance.  This is where my issues lie, although I'm not overweight or hairy, my FSH/LH ratio is reversed and my estrogen is low in relation to my testosterone.  It's really worth checking.  It could give you the answer you've been looking for.