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I have very small breasts (aa, aaa or something like that and I'm fat everywhere else), large puffy aereolas and flat nipples when they're not erect. They look normal when erect (and i want them to look like that all the time aaaah but that's not possible I guess??) but i actually ended op breaking on of my nipples in two when i was trying to "fix" them because I obsess way too much over this ah so yeah it's like that nipple died and the aereola too its not shaping up that easy anymore, and its smaller and falls asleep again faster and the aereola is bigger now too i think i'm so mad right now

I don't have money for plastic surgery and if i had, I don't think I would be confident enough to even show them the plastic surgeon
I think there's a chance I could get free surgery too, but yeah I don't think I'm brave enough to mention it to a doctor or anyone, I've never told anyone about this...

All I want is a normal body

so do you know any home remedies or something that can make your aereolas smaller, nipples and breasts bigger? And how can I heal a broken nipple if that's possible?

and is there a way to get permanently erect nipples