10-05-2010, 06:48 PM
Hi everyone, im sitting in a hotel waiting to go into hospital tomorrow for my operation to become a woman lol im scared and excited and a little lonely and i am having all kinds of thoughts about the last couple of years. A thought that keeps coming into my head is if i had not Started NBE would i be in this position now, would i be 33 hours away from becoming a woman. The answer is i dont think i would, NBE and this forum has done so much for me in more ways than one, its made me realise who i think i should have always been and thats Cheryl, and for that i am so gratefull, its been very hard over the last year with all the changes my body and mind have gone through, and the thing that keeps coming into my mind is if i hadent started NBE and my Hormone condition had not surfaced yet because of it would i still have been happy as a man, as before this i never even considered becoming a woman i just had a desire for breasts, so i think has the hormones changed my mind to the extent where it makes me want to become female, if the estrogen just stopped now and i had testestorone again would i hate being this way and want to be again lol so many things running through my head right now. But all i know is im happy and want to be a complete woman asmuch as i can and in 32 hours and 52 minutes i will be lol. So to everyone who has offered me support and help and kind words through my journey i thank you from the bottom of my heart as this forum and the people on it have gave me so much strength when things got hard and i can never repay that. So fingers crossed it all goes well and wish me luck lol.
Lots of hugs Cheryl xxxxx
Lots of hugs Cheryl xxxxx